Thursday, May 05, 2005 :::
 

Me and the "Wife" 

::: posted by Alex at 5:51 AM

 

Cleaned up the hosue. The "wife" is coming in today. we have to rehearse the scenes and do some other TV business. I have to make certain to "work out" some things with her. It will be good to see her again.

I was supposed to get time for the show, but I want to have it all edited and polished before I do that. I can stil get that Summer deadline on track though. I might talk to Matt again and see if I can hire him to do an Edit job for the show. He did a good job with the pilot. I have to get some audio sweetening though this time around.

Now for the cryptic part. You will need your "ring decoder" here. I was talking to my Old Consiglire, JMP. I talk to my Photo Guy and use him as the Consiglire, but it isn't the same. Anyway, he told he, Consigliere JMP to be more hardcore in shooting and who is there and who isn't. I need a relaxed shoot! Especially with certain scenes and if someone is not really crucial to the scene, then they shouldn't be there. I concur.

As an actor myself, I know I have to focus on the scene and make certain I am not distracted. I know people will say, you should just snap your fingers, get in character and do the scene and nothing should distract you. Well, not every actor uses the same technique to get him or her to the same place. You have to do what works for you. I am not bragging, but people have seen my performance as the Prosecutor and they like it. Still, it takes a lot of me to get there. I research adn get inside the guy's head. And when I act as him, I like to "become" him as much as possible. I'm happy I have a lovely wife. That makes it easier.


Still, the scenes with she and I are instense and I want to make sure they stay that way. She doesn't need to be distracted and neither do I.

I guess the more time you spend with someone, the more they open up. Now, not a bad thing. If you get closer. It does become a bad thing if they are not the person you thought they were. And some of the things they say (their viewpoint) on life, you find yourself totally opposed to. Still, I believe in America. I believe in freedom of speech. A person can say whatever they want to. I don't have to listen to it though, but I hink they have the right to say it.

Ijust wish they wouldn't say it to me though.

I ran into an actor a few nights back. He was white and told me that he wanted to be in my show, but the only roles I was casting for was for African Americans. He said, he had been to my site and it was all African Americans. Now all I could say was "what?" I have one of the most diverse cast in this city
http://www.prelude2cinema.com/TV/Dark/DARK-cast-2004.htm

And I make certain that I include a mix of people in the casting. So, I said, I had only put out one casting call. And that was to replace the old Lt. Foster. So, it was for someone African American, cause that's what Foster is. Well, he said, see all you cast is African Americans. This guy must have missed my general call out to all people.

And just from the conversation, it seemed he was trying to say, my show was all black, which it is not and I only cast black people, which I don't.

At this stage in the game, things speak for themselves.

I sent him a link to the cast page. He said, he had seen it, but if he thinks my cast is all one colour, then he must be having problems with his computer. Now, if a person is doing an all black project then that is their right. People do projects here with all white cast all the time. I can go to many a movie project here and not find anyone of colour in it. If it is a family movie where they all have to be one color, I can understand a bit, but damn, throw in some ethnic person somewhere. In the real world, there is a huge mix of ethnicity, but in the minds of some people, they don't think about that when casting. I make sure to include a mix and I got a little offended by the guy telling me my cast was not diverse.

So, I had to walk out. After a while, what can you say? Someone says something about you that isn't true, that you can prove isn't true. You can prove this easily. In two seconds. And they still tell you it's true.

I have to learn to just say nothing when someone does that next time. My Mom told me that's what I need to do. You know it isn't true, you're wasting time by trying to convince that. All you do is, say, a few words and move on. I'm learning.

::: posted by Alex at 5:02 AM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005 :::
 

I should be sleeping. I have a business breakfast meeting at 7am and then the "wife" is in here tomorrow. Hopefully I can be creative wiht her. She does bring out a lot of good things in me. And I do miss being creative.

Switching between the business and the creative phase of the show is really starting to take it's toll.

A Police Chief rode me around his city today. We talked a lot and he is a swell guy. So, I do have some really good people who have faith in the show. That is what he told me when I was leaving him. "Keep the faith." I guess it's a good thing to go by. I am doing an Event and got a nasty anynomous e-mail about it. It made me laugh and then I had to think which of my so-called friends sent it out. Anyway, I went out last night with D.M. He knows I was on TV cause my Photo Guy told him so. Did he mention it? Nope. Did he congratulate me? Nope.

Yet, if it was him, I would have congratulated him. And he'd be screaming it from the roof tops. Me, I just sat there and didn't mention it. Then I got up to leave. He asked me to play the game with him and some friends on Thursday. I told him, I had to see a blonde. And he said, well if that falls though, then come play. I said, I have to see a blonde. He said, hey, just offering a game from a friend. Yeah, I thought, a friend would have been happy for me.

Still, I expect too much out of people. So, fuck it. I just left. You know, it's really not an ego thing, but if something good happens, you want to share it with people. And mostly you think your friends are the people who you share things with. When they could really not give a fuck, you have to ask yourself, how much of a friend are they?

On to other things: when I was younger, I was bolder. Which got me in trouble, but I did like the fact that I took a chance. I am wondering if I should do so now concerning things. Well, personal things. I probably won't. Not directly. I have too much work to do here. And I think that is sad on one level, but I "made" this life, the least I can do is play it out. I remember the end of "What Makes Sammy Run?" Sammy Glick got the life he dreamed of, fought for and stepped on people to get. For a moment, he wasn't happy, but he kept moving because, this is the life he made. So, how much could he really bitch?

I didn't want to be lick, but then again, this is what I been working for. So, I might as well, sit back and say "What the fuck."

::: posted by Alex at 12:32 AM