Thursday, May 15, 2003 :::
 

Can't say everything going on, but I convinced of one thing. I have to get out of this fucking city. Well, I want to wrap up some things here, but that is it for me. had about all I can take of things. I guess I should have known better, but such is life. Really tired right now. Going to rethink the whole Cleveland movie studio thing. I will probably have to make some tough decisions over the next few weeks. It might work out better to be where they really make movies for a while.

::: posted by Alex at 11:02 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2003 :::
 

Hey Jennifer Garner From "Alias" is single again, so maybe... Wow, must have been daydreaming there. I have some shoots lined up for the Dark where my character gets a little more bad. I swear in June, no more shooting. I can edit then and I have been sending out info about the show to some potential producers. So far, interest, but no capital. So, I have to implement an ideal I had that will take some time, but may get some capital. Then again, who knows nowadays.

I talked to my Friend and warned her. She is OK. I think she knew all the time, but she flet greatful that I at least said something about it. As for D.M. Well, won't go into it, but let's just say the subject of women is off subject for me and him. I may play bad on TV, but that doesn't mean I want to be that way in real life.

Didn't make Jeopardy, but I met one of the Clue Crew from the show and gave her a copy of "Blood Kiss" and my Crain's Article. Also met a cute reporter from WEWS outside of the Jeopardy room. Forget to give her a business card, but I sent her a thank you card for interviewing me after I failed to get on the show. I have no ideal if it aired though.

I am supposed to go speak at a high school tomorrow, but the teacher never got back with me. Odd. I may call the school or just not go. Been a bit under the weather lately. Doing too much. Kind of tired. GOing to watch the episode of "Buffy" and "24" that I taped. And off to bed. Or at least I will refine my web income ideal. It should be interesting to see if I can make a few bucks from it and provide entertainment and a cash flow for p2c. It is worth a try.

::: posted by Alex at 10:11 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2003 :::
 

Ahh friendship. Had a big discussion/ arguement with my buddy David tonight. It seems he and his other male buddies do the usual "locker room" talk about women and I don't. I told him, it's a Southern thing. I wasn't raised that way. He also said I am the only person he knows with Southern roots. I was taught you don't talk about women like that and for the most part, I don't. Besides some people who brag, never do anything. So, we got into other discussions about people and what they may do. I know, very cryptic here, but sometimes you have to be. The jest of it was, do you warn someone about something even if it puts you in a bad position. Well, I said, yes, you have to. I warned a girl I know about someone I don't trust. I was diplomatic, but I felt I would be wrong if I didn't say anything.

I mean, how can you really be friends with someone if you don't warn them against bad things (or bad people). It's easy for me, cause I don't really like the guy. Still my Mom said, you have to worry about people knowadays. I agree. With that odd shooting at CASE a few days back. It seems the guy may have been pissed off cause someone changed things at his personal website. Makes no earthly sense, but this is the world as it stands. People lash out for most anything nowadays. Still, I think you have to do the right thing at times. You can't be afraid to say and do what you know is right just cause you are fearful someone is going to go postal.

I know, brave words, when it hasn't happened yet. I guess the thing is, you know you have to be willing to go postal yourself to defend yourself if it comes down to it. It is odd. I think it will unfortunately reach the stage where saying hello the wrong way will set people off. Such things have happened already. Years ago, a frined of mine in San Francisco looked at some people the wrong way (or just looked their way) and they beat him up. They were gang members and thought he was insulting them in some way.

The CASE thing is odd all the way around. I use to have friends that went there and it is something you don't associate with a school. I know a lot of students might actually want to drop out of there now or people might not go there because of it. And can you rightfully blame them. Sad thing is, that kind of thing can happen anywhere.

::: posted by Alex at 10:46 PM

 

Had coffee with Little Jess yesterday. It was nice talking to her for a while. Got to get more away form the movie stuff every now and then. Have to try out for Jeopardy tomorrow. I started to study. Got three books from the Library, but after a while, I stopped. Got lazy and also it is a lot to learn. You have to know a little something about everything. I figure, it is just an honor to get a chance to try out and that I know somethings and will do my best.

I finally managed to get the DVD version of "The Hot Rain" out to Lisa Marie in CA. She had bought the VCD on-line, but couldn't see it so I sent her the DVD and she is going to send me back the VCDs. I also have been sending out the Blood Kiss DVD. Really have to sell that movie. I managed to stick the DVD Letterbox version on DVD and also the press kit and other movies onto the DVD. I should have been pushing the movie all along, but I do too much as it is.

Well, I think that next month I shall have some free time to get more stuff out there. I will finish shooting the TV Series and then get the show out there. I have a new project to keep me busy with things, but I have to research it. it has to be income driven. The business plan will take some time to pitch and I will need to gather an income while that goes on. Wish I had some income to bring Rainey back in here and start the TV Show in full production. Still owe here from last time. Finances suck being an indie movie producer. So, I guess that is where the new project comes into play. It will be seperate from p2c and involve only me and someone else as to working it out. Can't say much on it until I really decide to put it out there. It feels sometimes that I am not doing enough, but I am doing a lot. I have to really do the business plan again though. A lot of things the company wants to do takes time to complete and that has always been the problem with getting income from them. Time to shoot a movie and finish it and then time to sell it. And of course, no guarantees...

Just found out a friend's husband passed. Man, life is short. I feel really bad for her. I knew the guy. He was a real good guy and young too.

I think you just have to live life and keep doing things. I wish I could do something for my friend other than let her know I'm here for her.

::: posted by Alex at 3:55 PM